Each piece is unique and comes into being in its own time. I learned this early on, but not as early on as I learned how to create a sacred connection between seemingly separate beads.
The process of hand-knotting is one that I learned at a local bead store and fell in love with. When I signed up for the class, I was following through on a curiosity that had been stirring for years. I knew going in that even though it was not a ‘mala making’ class, that I was going to create a mala for myself. We did not learn how to complete a knotted necklace without a clasp (I would later learn that on my own), so my first mala has a clasp but that’s just fine with me. It signifies the beginning of my journey.
The process and practice of hand-knotting has taught me a lot about myself – it has been a physical representation of my drive for perfection, and it has been the place where I have been able to find a little space away from the strangle-hold perfection can have on me.
A few weeks after taking the class I walked into the shop and said to my teacher, “The string broke again.”
“You’re pulling too hard,” she told me. “Don’t you teach people to breathe?” she asked.
“Yes…” I said, wondering where she was going.
“You need to give the beads space to breathe!”
And in that moment, so much shifted.
Of course, everything is connected. The beads need space to breathe just as we do, just as this practice of mantra meditation allows us to find for ourselves. So I let go of that striving for perfection, I gave the beads a little space to breathe, and in doing so, I found my flow.